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Love and Rejection

 It’s take so much pain to love someone who not gonna love me back..

it’s hurting that much that i would stop feeling sleepy..

the pain that make me cry so badly..

it’s feel like my heart is bleeding...

i feel so desperate..

desperate to love, being loved and in love...

way too desperate and i feel ashamed of myself..

why i always doing this kind of thing?

why can’t i just keep the feeling to myself..?

why should i need to confess when i know that he gonna reject me.?

why i keep on pursue a guy that never want me?

what is wrong with me?

it’s hurt so much...

i keep on asking myself...

am i ugly?

am i not good enough..?

is it due to all my sin..?

am i not deserving love?

why people keep on rejecting me?

and i not deserve anything?

not worth anything..?

this hurt so much..i felt like screaming..this hurt so much god...what should i do ? i hate being this weak..i hte it..what is this meaningless life..?

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